In the theme of Valentines day, I thought I'd share with you something exciting that has been going on in my life, regarding love.
So, just over a year ago, I made a pack to myself to stay single.
Mostly because, I spent a lot of my teens relying on having a man in
my life, that I ended up getting very hurt, I ended up losing myself
and my confidence, bit by bit.
Recently a mutual friend, came back into my life and as we started
chatting, I started getting feelings for this person. The feeling
between us was mutual, so we started going on dates. At first I was
excited and then I got all scared again that, this person might hurt
me the way, my past boyfriends did. I do find it hard to fall in love
and to trust men, after my experiences but, I have been trying really
hard to control it.
I want to start saying yes to things that would usually scare me,
like dating and falling in love. I need to push my anxieties away and
start saying why not? I want to be happy and I want to not care about
what people think about me or my choices.
Overall, I think I'll always have my insecurities but, I need to
give him, the guy I'm seeing the benefit of the doubt, who knows he
could be the man I marry one day? All I know is that he makes me very happy and I look forward to what's to come in the future.
Hope you've enjoyed my thought of the day!
Lots of Love, Hugs and Kisses
MHN
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