Life Update Sunday | When Things Don't Go To Plan

Yesterday I presented my first ever radio show and lets just say things didn't quite go to plan. I came to record somewhat prepared, I had my script written out, a playlist of songs, my boyfriend for moral support and my friends, and guests Steve and Simon on stand by to jump in. The second I went live on air the pressure got to me, I panicked and rushed through my script in about 20 minutes. In between songs I'd turn to Adam and say how badly it was going.. I was completely gutted! I put a lot of thought into my show, I wanted it to be something that I was proud of and something I was good at, especially as there was quite a bit of advertisement to go along with it. But as the perfectionist that I am, I just wanted to re-do it, start again or just give up but..

"the show must go on" 

After my mini-meltdown on and off air, I called my guests Steve and Simon to the rescue. While chatting to them, I managed to calm down and slowly my stress levels softened. The technical side of things was a little frustrating, what you can't see on the radio is a hundred different buttons with loads of different uses, it will definitely take me a little while to get use to that side of things. Overall, I survived and I did it, even though I felt like giving up a handful of times. After the show was over a massive sigh of relief was let out and a bottle of prossecco was waiting for me in the fridge at home. I just wanted to leave, I didn't want to talk about my show, I didn't want to listen, I was pretty bummed with how it turned out, despite from positive feedback, I was convinced that I had failed. 

Now I'm able to reflect on what happened, I think I was definitely being too hard on myself. It was my first show, there's bound to be something not to go to plan or turn out how you expected, nobody's perfect we all have our moments of insecurities and anxieties. I'm going to treat it like a learning curb, not something I'm going to dwell on but, something to be proud of. It's taught me how I can be better prepared for next time, as there are a few things I could have done differently. I'm looking forward to next weeks show to see how it all turns out.