Thoughts On... Turning 21

In a couple of weeks I'll be turning 21 and I have some thoughts about this, so I thought I'd put my pen to paper or in this case hands to a keyboard and write out what I'm feeling. This time 6 years ago I was about to turn 15 and I know that age doesn't seem all too important but, to me it was. I didn't realize at the time how important that age would be, a lot happened during that year and I experienced things I never imagined I'd experience at that age. At the time, I had low body confidence, self harm issues, depression and anxiety, I was a vulnerable 15 year old girl. While I was in that state, I was put into situations I never thought would happen to me, it triggered my issues to only grow worse. Then shortly after, a friend of mine Courtney, committed suicide. I'd known what it was like to grieve a family member but, a friend, a peer, someone my own age, to die suddenly. It was heartbreaking. I was at an all time low, I couldn't see a life that was worth living and had attempted suicide.

I didn't think I'd make it to 16 but, I did. I didn't think I'd make it to 18 but, I did. I didn't think I'd make it to 21 but, look at me now. I have an amazing job and am well on my way to build an incredible career. I have my social media platforms, my blog and my YouTube channel, so I can share the ups and the downs, every bit of my story with you and even inspire some people along the way. I have my wonderful friends and family to keep me grounded and supported every single day. I am extremely grateful for what I have now.

This post isn't about dwelling on what happened or the things I went through. This post isn't a cry for help or asking for sympathy or attention. This post is to tell you that, there is hope. I can't change the past but, I can control my future. Struggles will only make you grow stronger. Life will only be worth living, when you decided to live. The lessons I've learnt over the last 6 years have helped shape me into the woman I am today.. but, for now you'll just have to watch this space.